When people are asked what their biggest fear is a typical response would be, “oh, spiders” or “heights” or even “going to Walmart alone.” However, when thinking about a career as a Secondary Teacher, different fears are explored. Fears of violence, potty breaks, mouthy students, loss of temper, pit stains, and failure all seem to come to mind. As any fear, it is something you wish to avoid. However, as a High School Teacher…there is no possible way to avoid these common teaching fears. Dr. Ellington declared that every single fear our class had listed she herself had come into contact with. Fear is the basis of learning. Fear is what challenges us to overcome obstacles and hurdle into modifications.
Modifying and experimenting are two key terms that I have already embraced as a “pre-teacher.” I know I am going to fail, I know I am going to disappoint, I know I am going to draw a blank with my students and with myself, BUT I also know that from those downfalls I will rise. My downfalls and comebacks will be what shape my career, my methods, and my teacher identity.
(All this talk of downfall and rise reminds me of the Chumbawamba tune “I Get Knocked Down.” Such an inspirational collection of musical notes and lyrics((said no one ever))….perhaps I’ll incorporate this into my daily routine as a new teacher-or not.)